Monthly Archives: April 2012

Spring break is weird

It’s not really a break, these days. I’m working the whole week (yay), and I have a boatload of stuff to study. The week I get back is the 6th week of the semester, out of 12, so midterms galore. A couple of my classes don’t call them midterms, and we just happen to have a test then, but no one is fooled by this. I also need to finish my essay for that program. So much work and worrying.

But, I’m kind of ready for a break. So instead of writing things and reading things and looking things up, I’m reading journals and watching Say Yes to the Dress. This is even worse when you consider that I’m working at that dress store a couple days next week. Whoops. In any case, serious case of the lazy’s. I gave myself yesterday to officially sit around, and it seems to be leaching over into today. 

But hey, internetting all day led me to these amazing bathroom tiles. Totally getting them when I win the lottery.



(which incidentally is the name of a California blend white wine)(this is relevant because of the California and because of the name)(there also isn’t actually a conundrum, just thinking)

TO CLARIFY. I read a lot of online journals. I hate the word blog. It’s awkward to say. Online journal is more dignified. ANYWAY. I read a lot of them. And being obsessive-compulsive me, when I like someone, I read all of them. Like, keep hitting older posts until I get alll the way back to the beginning. If this sounds stalkerish, it might be. But! It’s like you find a good book! But you came in on the last chapter, and there’s another one coming out soon, so you read all the other chapters backwards! Or something. Anyway. A couple of these people who I read are in the Bay Area. One of them moved there recently, and they are making me want to move back so bad. I already wanted to. I love California and I miss it and there’s only a few people here that I would miss and one of them is totally up for moving out there with me in a couple years. But these people’s journals are making me want to go NOOOOOWWW. 

Here’s the catch. School. I like the program I’m in (or technically almost in, but really, look at my grades. I’m in.) and it’s the best in the country (fortuitous, eh? It’s the only place that offers this degree that I can go to, and it happens to be the best. In the country. Win.) Where was I? Oh yes. I like the school. And I’m taking this barrel of other classes, because I want to do all this other stuff. After I do this program, which will take another 2 years, I want to go to this other 4 year college that is part of the same system, and which has a ton of research-geared courses. I don’t want a full undergrad, but I do want to take enough classes to be able to get into graduate school (yes, yes, I know. Have faith). My AAS plus all thes other classes, plus classes at the next school…. 

I mean, I want to do it. They’re the right courses, I’m interested, it’s what I want to be doing. But it’s here. In New York. Not in California. And I may need to investigate more, but I’m pretty sure nowhere in the Bay offers the equivalent of what I’d get here. To sum up- ARGH. 

To further pull the heartstrings, a friend of mine from high school is moving out here in a month or so, and asked on facebook is anyone was interested in a “large two bedroom craftsman near downtown oakland for 1250”. ARGH. WHY. TEASE. Though downtown isn’t great, but come on. It’s a start. It’s good. I love craftsman houses. It’s the right kind of place for the right price. Anyway.

So, not really a conundrum. I’m here, it’s where I need to be, California can wait. Damnit. 

Mish mash.

It’s spring! And hooray and all that. After a dearth of work, things are picking up, and I have through May booked. There’s a bunch of open space in May still, but I’m at the point where I’m not worried, which is always nice. 

I’m not sure how to handle the summer thing. By which I mean, I’m applying to that program, but I’m not sure when to tell Camp. I don’t want to bail on them and then (horror of horrors) not get into the program. I’m looking at just doing session E, but I need to be sure I can afford to and all that. It’s all complicated, and I am still working on my essay and need to get my transcripts and all that. Rarg.

But it’s spring and it’s pretty and I don’t spend nearly enough time outside, but it’s nice when I can go into the courtyard at school and hang out there. 

School is chugging along, mostly going well. I did my first ever lab report the other day, and I think I did pretty good. It was actually kind of fun, being restricted from any kind of creative writing. Just sticking to the past impersonal and being strictly technical was an interesting exercise, and less stressful than normal writing. I got 96’s on both the lecture and lab quizzes. Chemistry is too slow and boring, but I’m killing it grade-wise. Next week is spring break, which means lots of studying for the 3 tests (that I know of so far) in the couple weeks after, but I’ll have time for that, and be able to sleep in. I’m doing better than I thought I would dealing with the 8am classes, but eesh. It’s a treat when I don’t have to get up before the sun.